so my break is all right. i have talked to ashley every single day and i mean every single day. Catey Etner called me on christmas which was a huge EXCITEMENT!!!!!! i have had my ups and downs but i am ready to go back to college. it is weird thoguh because when i am at home it is like i know i need to buckle down and do better in school i even know that when i am at school  but why can't i ever just do it. i have learned that i need to either do or don't but whatever i choose i need to stop filly dallying around and get serious. For all of  you who know about my dad i went and saw him for the first time Christmas eve and the visit was ok. everyone was there so i didn't do alot of serious talking to him like i wanted to but hey i think it would be better to do it in a letter becasue then he can't interrupt me. well i need to grab some more movies and get back home. but before i go i want everyone to know that i am planning to move to NC for the Summer. i am sooooooooooooooooooooooooooo excited and looking forward to it because i am tired of not showing what is on the inside and i can't wait to go their and live and learn with the people that are dear to my heart that don't really know me either so they will give me a fair chance. well i outy